Hi everyone. Ok…so I’m gonna rant for a bit…this may be long so buckle in and btw…if you don’t want the whining and complaining blame Emile and Synergy. They said they liked all the personal stuff. ๐ So I was looking through the archives and then helping Tat with the current ones. OMG! I knew I’d gained wait but I had NO idea how badly it looked. (I don’t want to hear it…I know your thoughts). Looks like I should go back to helping with archives. I did get to the gym today to have my first session with my Trainer. It wasn’t exactly what I thought it would be like. He’s starting me slow and teaching me how to do the machines we’ll be working and correct form. Makes sense but for someone who just wants the weight off NOW I’m itching to like really get going. I’m still feeling a bit guilty about the fact that he’s floating me session. I’ll just have to really start looking for change on the floor around the house to see if I can keep from getting to far behind. He’s told me that the main thing to worry about it training my body that it needs to burn it’s own fat and that we do that by building up my muscles and also that I should try not to eat before I do my cardio, so that my body burns it’s own rather then what I just fed it. I’m a little afraid to see what he’s got to say about what I eat. I’m sure it’s not good. And to top it all off…you know how they mirrors at the gym so you can see your form…well the Trainer is kinda cute (he has a girlfriend) and I kept thinking “oh god…he can see how terrible I look and how fat and the double chin….” eck I didn’t even want to look myself! But anyway…he showed me how to use 6 machines properly and that took up an hour. Then he set me up on the tredmil before his next appointment. I was gonna try for 25 mins but I was getting really tired. I bailed at 10 mins. ๐
Now for something TOTALLY different….what is with ALL the idiots on the net. You know I’d be tempted to be afraid that I’d insult someone with this huge rant for sure but the simple truth is…they just don’t f*cking read anything on this site so why should I worry. So I get some freak on ICQ who says hi to me. Now…I’ve taken to not answering all the icq’s. My list is just HUGE and that’s not authorized people. It takes me ages to get through all of them especially while I work. Anyway…I answered him back today since I’d gotten through the list, and he writes back “i’m surprised you replied”. I write telling him that it’s just to let people to when my cam is on and I’m in the chat room. He asks me where it is. I tell him www.girl2.com. He asks where the camera is. I mean DAMN rub a brain cell or two together. And I told him that. It’s not that hard. Then he says there are alot of pictures. Who am I? Ok is it me or doesn’t my name happen to be under just about all of the pictures???? Then he finds me and asks me /if I’m Japanese/!!! ug! :sigh:
I know I’m not on cam alot or chatting alot…I think it’s mostly stress and concern about me sleeping all the time. I’ll get over it I’m sure. But I appreciate everyone’s undying support. You all are great! Even you xed who’s finally started getting around to reading the news page ๐ Oh who are we kidding…you just get one to read it for you and fill you in :smirk: