Ug. Let’s try this again. This is the second time I’m writing this so hopefully I’ll remember it all.
I know some of you won’t believe it but for a while now I’ve been exploring my dominant side. I tell you this for a few reasons.
- It makes an interesting Bishop entry
- I’ve always shared revelations with myself
- I found out Daddy is tricky
- Someone made me realize it might be good to share
So why the urge to explore? Let me share…
While doing Keen last year I took a phone call from someone who wanted me to dominate him. I told him at the time I didn’t take those calls but he was insistent that he wanted to talk to me. So I talked to him and the more we talked the more he told me that something about me made him want to spend his money on me. Hey! cool…I like money. He told me that I should do dominant calls because there were men like him who weren’t worth a shit who needed to give their money to women like me. I was a little shocked that there was this sub-culture but checking into I found out there was.
I let it go for a while but after talking to Daddy about taking those kind of calls, I decided that I might like to give it a try. I’d had an encounter last year where Tat and I bought a boy to whip. Boy I could have left bruises for months with the amount of punching I wanted to do. I’ve always gotten what I’ve wanted from guys, ask the G2 fans. I’d spoken with another man on Keen who thought I was wonderful because since I knew what it was like to take pain I knew how to dominate him via pain over the phone. I’d enjoyed my time with him. I can’t count the number of times I’ve let men at Hellfire worship my feet. So maybe there was a dominant part of me.
But then the word “Switch” arises. I have never considered myself a switch and I still don’t. I would think a full switch is someone who will submit to more then one person as well as dominate more then one person. I have given my allegiance to one man yet honestly (sorry any male doms reading) feel most men are beneath my service. I have come to enjoy verbal humiliation (it’s a hell of an outlet for my anger). I enjoy giving pain. And I enjoy being pampered and doted on.
So I made a site to find submissive men to serve me. I only do this online or the phone (my life is too messed up as it is with 3 of us to take another into it real time). But I’ve kept it separate from Girl2 and Kimiko-Dreams. I did so because I wasn’t ready to share this side of myself with most people. I also didn’t want all the guys who beg me for pictures getting them without my discression. And…most of the G2 fans (except a few) aren’t into learning about any bdsm part of my life. But I’m sharing now.
A boy I dealt with these past few days did research for me and ran into these sites. This put a red flag up for him because many men are fooled into serving men pretending to be women or women who are only into it for the money. I can understand his issue with me having my own owner. But he put up a post on a respected moneyslave forum questioning me and also suggesting I was being “pimped” out. I was happily surprised to find that almost all of the Dommes that I know supported me in some manner. And the leader of the forum said he respected me for my responses to this boy’s posts and accusations. This meant a lot to me. It also reaffirmed in my mind that I DO have a dominant side.
Well this is no real news to Daddy. He’d supported my urge to explore this side of myself because he has and will have need of me to manage other submissives. He’s such a tricky bastard! ๐
So…now you know. And so do I. ๐
P.S. For the record…he has NOTHING to do with the slaves that I take on, though I do occasionally have a boy buy me gift I know he’d like to have. So sue me! ๐