I had a call last night and it prompted me to share it. Warning – there is vulger and un-Kimi-like language in this. Read at your own risk!
I’m not overly fond of phone sex as it is. When I started out on Niteflirt/Keen several years ago it was a lot of fun. I got to tease men, feel wanted, orgasm. Who wouldn’t enjoy that? But after a few months I started feeling used and then I just didn’t want to take the calls anymore. I’ve done it off and on since then because the extra cash is good. I”m not even doing them for 99 cents anymore. If I’m going to do it…something I’d really rather not…I want to be paid for it! So now I get 91 cents per minute out of the deal instead of the old 50 cents.
What prompts me to write about this is the call I just took. I was signing out as it was, but then got a call and decided to go ahead and take it. Started out cool enough. I was even in a good mood. The guy wanted to talk before we started. Wanted to know about me, wanted to tell me about him. I was teasing and laughing. But then we started in on the sex part and I quickly felt it go sour. He had explained he was a Dom. I had admitted that I didn’t like doing D/s calls because I didn’t enjoy calling guys Master. It didn’t feel right to me. He had said that leaving titles out of a call was ok. ๐ I really sorta thought it’d go like a vanilla call. He’d also made a big point of saying how he chose me because I seemed real. That he wanted “real” calls. Ok…so why am I suddenly having to tell this guy that “yes I want you every night”, “yes I’ll fly down to you”.
You see the thing that pisses me off the most about the call I think is that he started asking me questions about what I wanted. How I wanted someone who fucked me every night. How I wanted to be treated like a whore every night. How I wanted someone who would make me want it day and night. Why is that a problem? Because when I get asked those things…I go along with it. I might actually have an orgasm but I’m not about to tell some guy (especially one who doesn’t MAKE me feel controlled and dominated) that I’m flying down right now to him. How I’ve never been dominated like he’s dominating me. How I’m not being fullfilled. How I want more then what I’m getting….so when you ask me after all that “Then why are you fucking settling for it?” I bristle. I’m not fucking settling for anything and I’m sure as hell not going to tell you that you’re right…what I really want is you.
So as we continue this converstation and I starting to hear him say and ask more things that make me believe this guy REALLY thinks I’m being honest about what I’m saying…I’m deciding there’s no way I’m actually going to tell him I’m getting on a plane tomorrow. Yeah I know…it’s a fantasy call. I’m never going to have to meet him. What does it matter if I lie? But if I’ve told someone I’m going to be honest…I want to try and go with that. Call it a training exercise.
What’s even more amusing is that if you’d seen me…as he’s starting to get more and more vulger with me (which I can enjoy to a point) I’m starting to roll my eyes as I reply “yes I want you to fuck my sloppy shit hole”. I guess I’m a prude. :shrugs:
I came close to hanging up on him because I was getting more and more uncomfortable in the call. I thought about going and turning off my listing and blocking him so he couldn’t call back. But he seemed like he was close to cuming and it’d be over soon anyway so I kept on saying things like “I want to feel you cum in me” when he was asking what I wanted. I was hoping he’d get the hint.
Wanna know what annoyed me even more as I’m deciding I’m never talking to him again….? He’s grinding to a halt (and i’m sure I mean literally) and he goes “and as I bite into your shoulder and you can’t take it anymore…do you know what I do?” I say “what” and the fucker hangs up on me. Very amusing.
I’m still undecided about taking his calls again. I didn’t immediately block him cause the guy spent 69 bucks on me which I got 41 bucks of. Not bad. Almost may be worth the eye rolling, grossness of another call. :smirk: We’ll see…I think it’ll be a mood thing. ๐