Today had some ups and downs but it seemed like it was a little easier to get over and move on. I sometimes don’t like feeling like that because when I look back on it it seems like I went “oh well…deal” and that’s not the proper attitude towards mistakes made. I’m sure it’s not like that but it’s how it feels looking back on it. Does this make sense to anyone but me?
Anyway, I got a lot of compliments on the effort I’ve been making to loose weight. I’ve been showing Sensei and the guys at school my “report card” when I update my measurements. Sensei doesn’t totally believe I’m being honest with them but then again he’s use to kids lying about all sorts of things. What are you going to do? Daddy’s given me a lot of compliments lately while we lay in bed and it’s really helpful on my motivation. He’s told me he’s proud of me and that’s especially helpful when I’m pushing through the last 10 mins of a workout. This is the Kimi I was looking for. The one who doesn’t have to be told to go do X.
On another front regarding compliments, I got a call from a regular tonight for a reading. She has always been nice about telling me if I’m hitting situations for her or not. She told me that something I told her about her daughter pretty much came true the next day. I don’t know if I’m psychic. I don’t think I am but it’s so cool when I’m right about something. Maybe I’m a good guesser? I don’t know. But it really makes me feel good. 
I’m heading off to bed after having gotten my workout done and the gallery up, and an update to PopAngel. It’s not big but it’s something. I’ll add more when I can or when Daddy gets me a gallery that’s easy to update. Tomorrow Tat is coming up and we are all heading to CT to visit with our leather family. It should be interesting. I’ll take some phone pics when I remember and I’ll try to blog before I head out.
For now here’s some lyrics that hit me tonight while I worked out. They aren’t “to” anyone but the sentiment certainly applies in some aspects. Try not to read to much into it all.
Fighter – Christina Aguilera
When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn’t trust
‘Cause your bluff time is up
‘Cause I’ve had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
‘Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you’re wrong
‘Cause if it wasn’t for all that you tried to do
I wouldn’t know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
‘Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, ohh
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you’re going around
Playing, the victim now
But don’t, even begin
Feeling I’m the one to blame
‘Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won’t work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it’s over
‘Cause if it wasn’t for all of your torture
I wouldn’t know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
‘Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter