I’m hanging at Tat’s for the night. Daddy’s at home working and I feel a little bad at the amount of hours he’s had to put in lately. He’s a hard working guy and I appreciate that. I had a total blast tonight. I really really needed to get out of the house for my own sanity and luckily it worked out that I was able to come out with Tat and her girl and go to a Haunted attraction.
It was a little muddy and only a little chilly. I wore my “snow” boots cause I didn’t want to wear sneaker or my good boots to treck through the mud. Besides I wanted traction if it turned out I needed to start running. LOL. These boots are the ones I wear to shovel snow and what I wore to walk in the rain forrest in Alaska. They aren’t the kind I’d wear to the club but they definately need to be cleaned and polished now! I can’t wait! *grin*
I had a total blast selling out the girls and influencing some little girls on the Haunted Hayride. They were screaming before it even started and it was amusing to tell them that the monsters are attracted to the screams. I watched them hold thier hands over the mouth and try not to scream when the guys jumped out at them. I even pointed one guy their way. I’m evil. I sold out Tat’s girl by giving one of the “monsters” her name. She played it cool like she didn’t hear but she wanted to hit me when I confessed I totally gave her up. I did actually scream a few times myself. And I stopped dead cold when one of the chainsaw guys came at me. Predictably he went around me (they can’t touch you) and went after the girls who were backing up and screaming. I laughed a lot during the three events. I don’t generally like to be scared but it was fun to be “strong” and “confident” in an environment meant to scare the shit out of people and where people in fact are losing their shit. I needed that.
I got out part of my plot on paper yesterday and plan to finish out what’s thought out tomorrow when I get back home. I also got out some things I’d been bottling up which made me feel a little less angsty. There is more to figure out but I’m in a never ending battle of my own will to accomplish goals and follow the road I think is right so I’m not to upset about it.
I’m planning on heading to the ER on Tuesday. We’ll get them to set me up at the pain management clinic and recommend a new therapist and psychatrist. The headaches have been killer over the last 3 weeks and they have to stop. They’ve come with random naseau and that really has to stop. (no i’m not pregnant :P) We’ll get it fixed. ๐ I have faith. I’m having a lot of that lately. Now I just have to get myself to the gym. ๐
Ok I’m off to lay down. Not sure what time I’m heading home tomorrow and god knows how long we’ll all end up too lazy to get our collective asses out of bed. ๐ So…more later. ๐