Be prepared…

I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me today. Insecure…weepy…fuck!

Not much has gone correctly today, though Daddy hasn’t really had to yell at me. It just seems like everything is taking twice as long to actually do what I want it to do. Spent 3 hours just trying to get my email to fricken work. Sent text messages to Adam…they got there while he was trying to sleep hours later. Said something stupid without thinking. Just….UG

This song has been playing in my head all day. Don’t know what it means. Don’t care. Just like it.

Sorrow – Flyleaf

Sometimes life seems too quiet

Into paralyzing silence

Like the moonless dark

Meant to make me strong

Familiar breath of my old lies

Changed the color in my eyes

Soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by

Sorrow lasts through this night

I’ll take this piece of you

And hold for all eternity

For just one second I felt whole

As you flew right through me

Left alone with only reflections of the memory

To face the ugly girl

That’s smothering me

Sitting closer than my pain

He knew each tear before it came

Soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by

Sorrow lasts through this night

I’ll take this piece of you

And hold for all eternity

For just one second I felt whole

As you flew right through me

And we kiss each other one more time

And sing this lie that’s halfway mine

The sword is slicing through the question

So I won’t be fooled by his angel light

Sorrow lasts through this night

I’ll take this piece of you

And hold for all eternity

For just one second I felt whole

As you flew right through me

And up into the stars

Joy will come