Probably won't make sense to anyone but me…

I got up cause I was coughing alot and I couldn’t sleep. Daddy and I saw Eagle Eye tonight. I didn’t want comfort food…I wanted a comfort activity and my brain said “movie”. He was nice enough to oblige and we went out for a 12:30am showing. The movie was awesome. Shia was gorgeous. It’s exactly what I wanted it to be. 🙂

Anyway, I’m still sick and when we went to lay down I tossed and turned and coughed. So I got up so I wouldn’t wake him up and thought maybe I could do a little work while I was still awake. My machine was slow so I rebooted and rooted around for anything that might be slowing it down. Found some files in the delete bin…got lost for a few minutes. It left me feeling really really ill so I rebooted and used the time to just calm my stomach down, get my head straight, focus. I looked above my desk while I waited and saw two things that called to me. 1) A piece of paper I just taped up the other day that Daddy brought home for me. 2) My tarot cards…this deck is for when I need to do a reading and I’m at my desk.

They were both important and good for me to remember. They won’t fully make sense to you probably…but they do to me and I think in the future…some day I”m gonna look back on this post and go…”oh yeah…right!” and smile. That’s the hope anyway. I’ve made it impossible not to read ahead…I know….but I don’t really care much right now. LOL 🙂

The cards:

1. Tell me what lays ahead:

Eight of Swords Reversed, The Empress, The Knight of Cups, The Nine of Pentacles, The Queen of Swords

2. Is this really true?

Four of Cups, The Wish Card (Nine of Cups), Two of Pentacles, Eight of Pentacles Reversed, Ten of Pentacles

The Paper:

Failure is Never Final

Failure is never final! The only time you can’t afford to fail is the very last time you try. Failure doesn’t mean I’m a failure; it just means I haven’t yet succeeded. Failure doesn’t mean I have accomplished nothing; it just means I’ve learned something. Failure doesn’t mean I’ve been a fool; it just means I had enough faith to experiment. Failure doesn’t mean I’ve been disgraced; it just means I dared to try. Failure doesn’t mean I don’t have what it takes, it just means I must do things differently next time. Failure doesn’t mean I’m inferior; it just means I’m not perfect. Failure doesn’t mean I’ve wasted my time; it just means I have reason to start over. Failure doesn’t mean I should give up; it just means I must try harder. Failure doesn’t mean I’ll never make it; it just means I need more patience. Failure doesn’t mean I’m wrong; it just means I must find a better way.