Sometimes I think I want the world. I dont necessarily think I deserve it…but that doesn’t stop me from wanting it…<\/p>\n
Take for instance the fact that, ultimately, I want to have my Daddy and my sister…and a boyfriend. That’s a lot to ask the world for. It’s a lot to ask from a boyfriend. “Hi…I’m gonna have great sex with you….go on dates with you and make you smile…we’ll even have a relationship if we can swing it….oh..but did I tell you that you can’t make any of the decisions about WHEN and where you get to see me? And well…ultimately you have to come second?” Nice huh?<\/p>\n
How can you ask for something like that and expect someone to just be ok with it? Especially since the kind of guys I want…have a spine? I mean…what good are they to me if they can’t take a little dominant action with me in bed? LOL That sounds really horrible. But you get what I’m saying, right?<\/p>\n
I’ve never been the kind of person who can have a fuck buddy. Don’t get me wrong…I’m trying to move slower then I have in previous situations…but I admit to wanting a boyfriend…not just a friend who I screw sometimes. I’d even go so far as to stay friends with a lot of benefits. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
Just like I believed jealousy could be overcome in my relationship…deep in my little selfish heart of hearts I believe I can have it all. If I just work hard enough and do it right. But the fact of the matter is…am I the one doing most of the work? At least any of the work that’s noticeable.<\/p>\n
What am I doing? I’m promising to work my ass off to not get a bf’s time revoked by getting trouble. I’m promising to maintain a happy attitude so that everyone is happy in the situation. There are a few other thoughts as to what I’d be offering but they seem really lame in comparison with the big one of “you can’t come first”.<\/p>\n
Is it too much to ask someone? Is it to much too expect?<\/p>\n
Is it too much to think I am worth asking someone to do that for me? I may be worth a lot…but that’s an awful hell of a lot.<\/p>\n
And aside from that…is it possible to make my family happy too?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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