The last few days have been hard. I just simply had a horrible day yesterday. And then I did something really f*cking stupid. It’s a mistake that’s happened in the past. One of those mistakes like that comedian says “And this time….I mean it.”<\/p>\n

It’s actually something I’ve been working on pretty hard over on the last few months but failed to apply it to all aspects of my life. Sad really. Will I learn it this time. “And this time… I mean it.”<\/p>\n

I’m chosing to try and stay focused on positive things that fall in line with self improvement. Working on more podcasts. Getting Sex and Power Play<\/a> running and seeing if I can make some cash from it and the same with the as yet unamed Tarot\/Divination Cast I have in mind. Working on podcasts for Daddy<\/a>. Getting some promos, intros and outros made I’ve been asked to do<\/a>. Working on Tale Chasing<\/a> and comitting to a project as well as 70 Days of Sweat<\/a>. Actually applying myself to my Judo practice and doing my workouts regularly. Fixing mistakes I’ve made and proving I can do it. “And this time….I mean it<\/a>.”<\/p>\n

Next week I’m going to try and go to the ER at St.James hospitol in Newark. They have a pain management center as well as behavioural clinic. The headaches need to be gotten under control. I’ve been writing down what they’ve been and it’s been high and hard to deal with. I should be able to get charity care to take care of the appointments and get this resolved in some measure.<\/p>\n

That’s my update for now. More later.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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