I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me today. Insecure…weepy…fuck!
Not much has gone correctly today, though Daddy hasn’t really had to yell at me. It just seems like everything is taking twice as long to actually do what I want it to do. Spent 3 hours just trying to get my email to fricken work. Sent text messages to Adam…they got there while he was trying to sleep hours later. Said something stupid without thinking. Just….UG
This song has been playing in my head all day. Don’t know what it means. Don’t care. Just like it.
Sorrow – Flyleaf
Sometimes life seems too quiet
Into paralyzing silence
Like the moonless dark
Meant to make me strong
Familiar breath of my old lies
Changed the color in my eyes
Soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by
Sorrow lasts through this night
I’ll take this piece of you
And hold for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me
Left alone with only reflections of the memory
To face the ugly girl
That’s smothering me
Sitting closer than my pain
He knew each tear before it came
Soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by
Sorrow lasts through this night
I’ll take this piece of you
And hold for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me
And we kiss each other one more time
And sing this lie that’s halfway mine
The sword is slicing through the question
So I won’t be fooled by his angel light
Sorrow lasts through this night
I’ll take this piece of you
And hold for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me
And up into the stars
Joy will come