For someone who’s been sleeping most the day I am so tired. Fact of the matter is that I haven’t really been sleeping all day. I’ve been getting up almost every hour or every “x” amount of minutes to do things or check on Daddy. He had some pretty serious dental work done today and it didn’t agree with him at all.
Couple the fact that he hasn’t had much sleep, didn’t eat much today, and wasn’t feeling really up to par to begin with and you have a very very sick Daddy. He’s finally resting now and that makes me happy. He’s still not a happy camper but the worst of it is over I think.
My head’s been killing me. He mentioned a few days ago he wanted me to only take 2 “asprin” a day. I say it that way because he didn’t specifically say “2 advil” or “2 ibuprophen”. So I just assumed I could only take 2 of any of the over the counter pain meds I had. I understood why…to much will do some pretty serious damage and I’ve been pretty concerned about it myself. I supplemented my 2 “asprin” with sinus/allergy pills but they didn’t have as much effect as they have in the past. So it’s not fully sinus/allergy. There is pain in my neck and my temples aside from around my nose and above my eyes. We were able to talk about it a little earlier and he said as long as I rotated that was better and I didn’t just have to go cold turkey on the pain meds. We think I should check into the basic allergies I might have. I plan on talking to the Dr about it when I get to go at the end of August. (Hint: When you are on charity care…they don’t really care how long it takes them to see you. So unless your dying…it could be a while.)
I’ve been fairly calm the last few days. Part of me wonders, now that I’m back on Welbutrin SR and not XL if that has something to do with it. I still find small moments of anxiety about the oncoming day or whatever but I seem better. I feel like I’m in AA. “Hi I’m Kimi and it’s been 5 days since I’ve seriously fucked up.” Maybe counting the days will prevent the “comfort zone” from setting in that allows the mistakes. 2 days down on writing in my GJ. I have to do today’s but I’ll do it later after I’ve had more then a few hours of sleep in a row.
That’s all for now.