I will not crawl into a hole…

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Well I can tell you…I’ve had better weekends in the past. Without getting into huge gorey details we’ll first just say that my plans with Adam didn’t quite go the way we’d both hoped they would. I did get to spend the night and a good deal of time with him but the setting wasn’t the one we’d hoped for. With a lifetime a head I suppose it’s the time and not the setting that is the issue. ๐Ÿ˜›

Sunday it didn’t rain. You all failed me on the prayers. *teasing*ร‚ย  The parade started late and we stood around with the kids for several hours waiting for them to start. I was also pulled aside and told that perhaps the confidences I’ve enjoyed in the past weren’t the best choices. After just stating what my biggest pet peeve is a few posts back, we can imagine how much this DIDN’T make me happy. I spent the majority of yesterday quite and annoyed. You know, those days where you would prefer just not to talk. It’s taking alot to keep myself from never sharing anything with anyone anymore. Obviously, I need to tighten up what I talk about with whom and where, but to never talk to anyone else is a little silly and I realize that. I think though that I’m going to either need to just share things that are important with those I know I can aboslutely trust or write it in a journal somewhere and bury it.

Mom is right: this lesson is really really hard. ๐Ÿ™

P.S. If we look at the positives: I got time with Adam. I did several things this weekend that Daddy really was happy about and mentioned.